Lens > Specs

YAHOO! Me got me contact lens edi. Specs-less pic! Bed not made. Lol. I'm gona jump on it after this and go zzzzzzzzzzz. Ok that's all byebye.

=)

And I'm down with the flu. STUpid inFLUenza. STU FLU. *sniffles*

Oh ya. Ima post this pic of my sis, and Vincent. Cause I think they look hot! Colour coordinated somemore.

*cusses* daymn so hot right..! Can't wait for my 1st halloween party! Which will be, i don't know when.

K beddiebed time. Get well soon sarah! =.="

World Of Chemistry(edited)

Fuh. I think this pic is so hot. Notice the H20 on the kid's balloons!

Things I need to do :

1. Collect my contacts *kaching rm280 gone with the wind*

2. Study for math internal test(which is tomorrow and is 20% internal marks)

3. Sit for math test and go on chasing all class reps for payment of class photo order. Note : still one class left PE11 will you come find me pleaaaaase

4. Do math assignment on powerpoint (30% internal marks)

5. Consider movie with Terrence (I really REALLY want to watch INKHEART! The trailer is so good!) Note : postponed till next week

6. the 29th? Sky Bar with bryan as planned? Note : postponed till the 13th dec

7. But need study! Chem test on monday!

8. Physics test on thursday (6 chapters)

9. Clubbing nite out with Tim and friends?

10. Yamcha with Wei Jin, a nice evening out as SimeDarby rejects. (but he got JPA while i didn't mahaiiii) ahahaha

10. Stay back for a week plus (and not go back to miri early to bask in family love) to check on the magazine deadlines and ensure it's 80% completed before christmas!

11. A2 computing project!!! (40% for finals!!!!!)

ARGH I will probably end up cancelling all my social opportunities. I will stay home and study and cry myself to death within my lonely abode. First things first, collect contacts.

Few minutes left to pretty time. WHEE~

Ee this game so fun la. Everything else can wait la. wahahahaaaaaaa :

Sara's Super Spa. Play it people!
http://www.shockwave.com/gamelanding/superspa.jsp

Job Well Done Mate *high five!*

Today I did a naughty thing.

I skipped class.

I don't skip class.

Ever.

Except the time the whole class skipped and I would've looked too lame to not skip (image is important ok)

Well this time I skipped causeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

:)

It was photo-taking session!! For the entire Alevels! As assistant chief of the editorial board, I had to help coordinate the event with my dear editor and with the few members who turned up, elyse, jon, lan, yee lyn, michelle, alyssa, yi feng and farah. Thanks guys! We did such a great job today! So productive~ Well credit goes to yuva, for he was a runner all day. Yuva rocks!

So we had to gather every class in the LT1 at different times, get them sorted according to heights, get them on stage, keep them segregrated from other fellow mouthers, and focus at the task at hand while time ticked away. I have no idea how many times I had to explain the arrangements to each class rep. My words were starting to get clustered already(cause I talk too fast) and running to get all the lecturers was tiring, cause every class photo had to have all subject lecturers, not just the mentor. Lecturers were scattered all the time.

Anyhoo, it went well cause we were ahead of schedule halfway through, and we were roughly on schedule for most of it, starting at 8am and ending at 2pm sharp, as planned. YIPEE!

Yea and after 2pm, i went back to a 1hour physics class, cause I'm too guai to be true. Got excuse to skip but nooooo, had to go. Hee.

It was fun today. Cause I feel like I'm growing outta my shell. I'm starting to open my MOUTH NOW AT LEAST, to chatter away like old times. It's starting to hurt less, and the dread of living is slowly starting to disengage(chewah so suicidal). And after we were done, michelle hugged me. Aww I felt so loved. *bon jovi's 'thank you for loving me' serenades*

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Nyway, I went out with boyfriend the other day to have a delicious meal.

Lonely

Lonely no more! One chopstick each per person, but the bbq sauce is all mine. MINE!


Boyfriend and I's rice. With our delicious platter, meat, squid, vege, prawn and noodles..



...Which we cooked on this!


Boyfriend! HAHAHAHA GOTCHA! This is shuwen. LOL. My friend la! A girl la! I'm not lesbian la! I was serious ok, when I said I'm not dating again till AFTER i learn to trek around the world in 80 days, eat maggots, sleep in a dunk of poo, wear panda fur, live in the arms of a chimpanzee. lol. Till after I get my life sorted out la. hahaha. Casual dates ok la, (lol consolation prize). just no relationships.



In specs. DAMN KANASAI UGLY. Specs ma. Grace used to call me FrogPrincess when i'm in specs. Ribbit. Ribbit. Aren't you glad I'm not dating anyone now? Spare the guy some dignity. wahhahahahha.



Eh my contact lens expired. Thank God, not during finals. Otherwise I would've been damn blur chin chin sit for exam. Looking through specs curvature lens makes everything smaller than it actually is. I look shorter, my face looks rounder, ugh, dent in my self-esteem la.

(>.<)

Y'know what else made this day so productive? I found an optometrist!!! YAHOO!!!!! It was dark d, I went by myself (cause I'm a hermit crab *kiaps your eyes out*). And when I found it, I was damn happy, almost fell to the ground and kissed the floor (in slow motion with rain falling dramatically all over me). HAHAHA.

And this optometrist is damn nice ok. First time meeting him and he is really my favourite optometrist in the whole wide world, including secluded habitats and outer space. He is like the nicest la. Haiya I didn't see the name of the shop la, too happy edi so I skipped inside. lol.

He checked my eyes, talking to me all the way and laughing at my statements. So nice la! Where can find so nice guy in kl ah (stereotype mode : on. dont perasan if you don't think you ought to be stereotyped) Then he helped me order my contacts, kinda cheap in comparison to other optometrists, and told me I need to come back for FREE regular checkups so he can keep track of my eyes. And he didn't require deposit, cause it was dark and he knew I'd have to make my way to the ATM and I'd probably get mugged on the way (choi) he's just too nice la.

GRACE ALYSSA CHUA!!

(who always laughs at my weird eyes) READ THIS!

He explained why my right eye deviates. hahaha macam juling. HAHA It's not coz i juling la mahai! It's cause my eye has this condition called what, i forgot edi, it's just something like it deviates when I've concentrated too much on something to prevent my eyes from getting tired. It's better to have this deviation thing la, so that I won't get tired eyes easily *triumphant smile*

Anyone wanna guess the SHOCKING POWER of my eye defects?


Right : Short sighted- 800, Astig-350
Left : Short sighted- 825, Astig-200


Lol actually didn't increase much since my last check-up. I think maybe crying too much helps. LAWL.

Cheers to prettier days with contact lenses!
*clinks wine glass* (empty one. I don't drink)

Do I Hear An Applause?

With reference to yesterday's post, I made a vow. And today, that so-called vow was fulfilled with upmost strength and willingness. I attempted to face my deepest and darkest phobia. (No, not eggs you idiot.) Exposing myself in public(no not stripping you idiot), exposing myself to potential rapists, murderers, mutilaters, robbers, muggers and such.

I took public transport. And all by my lonesome. Me Me Me. All me. ME. Do i rock your socks or do I rock your panties. Daymn. I rock. Me. Rocks. Your. Socks.

Entrance into serious mode:

Due to circumstances which have happened in the past (which may not be said), I have had this tremendous fear of being raped. I know, it's every girl's fear. But my fear is greatest. Just cause. No i wasn't raped before lah. Just cause. End of story.

KL has many stories circulating around, ie, girl raped by taxi driver and killed, girl's 7K stolen from apartment, girl jumped down a 4th floor to avoid being raped, girl's wrist slit for not surrendering her belongings. Worst of all, girl had a log stuffed up her vagina all the way to her neck. So you know how life is. The world is turning into a place where we no longer recognise our own species, yes people, it is time that we look out and be aware of every little thing. Trust me, I am paranoid. LOL. But if could happen to them, it could happen to us too.

KLAH enough scaring la. ( it's real tho). ANYWAY, the story of my bravery further continues....................... with...........

POL COMING TO KL!

YES SHE IS HERE PEOPLE!!

And thus, when I heard she was coming, I saw an opportunity to fulfill my vow, I jumped right at it! I said YES GOD, I heed your call. I am going all the way to see her. I live in Subang and she's in KL. For all miri people, we call this whole place KL right, but for KL people, KL is only a city (in case you didn't know).

Here we go yo. Taxi man yo. I was in here buh muhself yo. Yo yo yo. YO. I was headed to the komuter station. haha it's within walking distance actually, but I didn't wanna walk (reference to girl's wrist slit). and also, cause my hair was real pretty and wind would've totally ruined it. Oh ya but before I left the house, my eyes started to hurt real badly and I needed to take out my contacts and wore specs instead and that totally decreased my level of prettyness by 10teragigamega times so I said ah heck, just be ugly lah, and tied up all my pretty hair. LOL.

Then, I met up with Bel and Idzrul (her bf) and we made our way to see pol ze pink princess. hahaha. pol iboh manas. :)

Here is the happy couple! With bags (which I thought were couple bagpacks, but aren't couple bagpacks according to her.) But nvm, we shall perceive it as couple bagpacks!


Pol ze Pink Princess~ (iboh manas) hehehe.. Isn't she pretty. Few months ago, pol didn't have straightened hair and she refused any form of pink bestowed against her. Pol, you're all grown up now *sniff* You make me proud! *big bear hug* (fuzzzzzy)

Pol brought a friend too, emma. Whom I owe my life, for she taught me how to use the KTM to go home (more of this later). Sorry no pics of you Emma.


Awww schweeeet~ They had couple slippers too, according to bel, but his kena stolen at the masjid. And he returned home with lousy bathroom slippers. Sad. :(


Some more of them.


And no pics of me. Cause specs make me ugly. =S


Anyway, we hung out, and then Bel and Idzrul left their own way, so Pol Emma and I went shopping for a little bit. And then it was time, time to embark on my journey home ALONE.

By that time, I had no idea where I was, we apparently went to Sogo and walked to the KTM station. Emma helped me buy a ticket to Subang and I went on my way. It was already dark and we all know darkness is where the lurkers crawl. LOL.

I made sure I went on the platform which said Pelabuhan Klang and sat there next to an old lady. More people started coming. The train going to Seremban arrived at the other side of the platform, and I saw someone who looked like me, her back was facing towards me, but she had my outlines (LOL). That lookalike on the train reminded me of lookalikes. lol. andd.....

..I immediately thought back to the time I was in love. It was in hongkong disneyland, when my bf and I had already broken up. My bf and I traveled in separate groups, and all day long I would wish I would bump into him. I looked at every single guy, wishing it were him, wishing that spec dude would be him, that spiky hair dude would be him. The day at disneyland was magic, music from disney soundtracks played all day, but as the day grew longer, it felt like shrills to my ears, as I had glanced at way too many lookalikes and felt sick to my stomach. I didn't have much fun at all. Because I depended on him, i wanted to see him, i wanted to stay seeing him.

But yea anyway why is this diverting to my lovelife, lol nvmla linger here a while ah, lovelife topic. So anyway I realise I've been depending too much on my boyfriends, i didn't even have my own fun in disneyland! And hence I know now that I need to learn to stand on my own two feet, and stand strong, before I ever start dating again. END OF LOVELIFE STORY.

Anyway, 20 minutes later, my train arrived. I got on it, and sat nearest to the door facing the signboard. And then, I thought, darn this specs why can't I see a thing, contacts are seriously better la, so I squinted and tried to look at the signboard. The train was moving, yes it was. Then I realised, oh no oh no, where am I from again? Panicking I smsed pol and asked her where she dropped me off. She said Bank Negara. Bank Negara? Isn't that like the scholarship place that DECLINED me? Looking at the signboard, I found it *phew*.

I looked to my side and there was a blank seat, next to the blankseat, there was a transvestite dude with a nice briefcase. Wait a minute. Briefcase. It was cube-ish and greatly sealed. OMG could this be what I think it is? Something that detonates? Anyway, transvestite dude looked sorta scary. But I guess he wouldn't have a penis for malicious intention, so it aint so bad after all. ha ha ha. I'd rather have him than a bangla/indon. (stereotype mode : on. dont perasan if you dont think you ought to be stereotyped)

Station after station, people kept coming in. I gazed intently at every person and wondered what to think of them.

(Paranoia mode : on)

I looked around and thought, hey that grey-shirt-guy had fluttering eyelids cause he was falling asleep but why oh why were his eyeballs looking at that woman's underpart. Gosh. Or wait, maybe he was looking at her handbag. 'Beware pink lady, please beware!', I monologued. A woman came to sit next to me. She wore a yellow shirt. She said sorry for placing a plastic bag on my foot, she must be kinda nice, for people in msia dont usually say sorry. The guy in black opposite me looked pretty genuine and harmless, but haih, the possibilites~

There was another yellow shirt guy diagonal to me, he looked like a harmless student. And hey, there was another yellow shirt guy, and why did he keep looking at me, and looking away when i caught him looking? Did he care for me? Aww. Is this a lesson to me that I should hate the colour yellow less?

Station after station, people came in. At Pandai Dalam, grey-shirt guy walked on his way out. Wait a minute, why is there a bump at the genital area of his jeans(don't look at me in disgust ok, this is a skill lydia and I learned in form3. its called erm, observing.) oooh I knew that guy was up to no good. Anyway, he's gone forever at the pantai dalam stop. Good riddance.

My eyes then beheld a pretty little 8-year old girl. Stripe pink and grey shirt, black bandana, rings on her 3rd and 4th little fingers, and cute pink polka dot shoes, with a ribbon on it. She was smiling at her bro. I thought instantly, little girl get out before you-know-what detonates. You have the rest of your life to live, if koko doesn't make it, you will. Write a book, swim the seven seas, Live baby, live. And then I thought hey, I am on this train too, im too young to die! See this shows how my instincts are directed to little kids before me, hence showing the great mother I will be! *grins*

Glancing to my left, I saw a guy with a nice face and kind eyes He looked like the crossbreed of Chrispian and the Ong guy my friend used to date. Wait a minute, wasn't the Ong guy a gangster. Haih the possibilities~ He looked kind though, but then at the Petaling stop, a girl with pink flannel blocked my view of him. No girl, can't I have a little comfort? Do not block. Haih nevermind la, look at the yellow guy lah. (eh don't call me a guy fisher ok, as much as i'd like to be a feminist right now, guys have physical strength which are used to protect ok, I just needed more security.)

After the longest while, my hands were already starting to get cold, I got off at Subang Jaya. Found a taxi driver hwb5344(in case you see this taxi driver, he's safe ok!), got in and saw a girl in there. I thought yes! someone to talk to me, finally. So I talked to her till we reached. Shes from inti, doing pre-engineering alevels, just like me, just around my height, and pretty. Taxi driver sent her home 1st and as I watched her leave , I thought *haih bye my soulmate-that-could've-been* and adjourned home. Safely :)

Btw, don't take me seriously when I talked about the thing that detonates. It was probably some pet cat or something. Lol. cali. Too many action movies and this is what happens la. lol.

Anyway, this whole story ladies and gentleman, depicts how Sarah Jane was SUCH a Big Brave Girl today.

=)

And pol, bel, it was lovely to see you both again~

SHUWEN啊!!!!

生日快乐！

Happy 18th dearie! May your days be filled with sunshine days, and know that you are beautiful in your own special way. =) Cheers to higher self esteem and higher self-confidence! MWAH!

This girl, shuwen, makes everything more bearable because she is FARNIE, and that face she makes, neh the one where she sticks her tongue out and her face makes this rigid-ish movement is really signature shuwen style and it's too damn cute! And yes I tell her off alot (cause i love to win, always and forever mwax) and make her cry, and then pat her and say 'dont cry' (cause i feel tooo bad ok when i make people cry) and then she will laugh again and it's all's good :D She's always emo during practical cause im too dumb dunno how to freaking set up apparatus keep bugging her, and she's too lazy dont want do calcs need copy mine whenever i'm hurrying to finish it up but no worries gal!! After Advanced Subsidiary Level, no more practicals d, meaning no more fighting!! :D

But really, she makes the next half year in KL a little less dreadful. and by golly gee, do I need more little less dreadfuls in life considering the difficulties lately. Ho hum. Thank you shuwenaaaa! :)

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ANYWAY, *PLOPS ON BED*, it's the time of da good life again, where studies can be puuuuushed all the way to the edge of neverneverland cause HEAR ME Y'ALL. EXAMS OVER Y'ALL. Seriously, I've never worked this hard in my entire life y'all, these days, when I study over and over I will think 'what la, am i doing, this is so not like me la'. And last time, I never really studied, so when exams were over, it'd be like 'hoorah big deal' *pfft*.

But now, it's more like YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *SCREAMS TILL I GET DEAF AND VOICE STARTS CRACKING OH NO OH NO WHO CARES SCREAMS SMMORE* cause I REALLY AM SO VERY HAPPY (happier than the time I finished my root canal). Honest! All the hard work finally over! And I know how it feels like now, to have strived for more and to have not stayed stuck in that awful rut of complacence. seriously all ye know-it-alls, don't think life is great just cuz you're damn straight A1 smart and things are dandy cause in the end y'all, it comes down to nothing y'all cause accomplishment would never feel this sweet y'all. (not that I actually know of my accomplishments la, coz results not out yet ma, please don't laugh at me if it comes out bad ok =( or I will spread my crybaby mucus on you hehehe )

Ah the days of imprisonment in the ice cold lockup of the library, be gone! and never show your countlessness ever again. Amen.

Ribuan terima kasih kepada malaikat-malaikatku yang bertungkus-lukus memberi tunjuk ajar bagai lilin membakar diri.

hahahah this is just so funny! I marked that question (in red pen) to ask Tim and when i showed it to Tim, he wrote that in pencil. Thanks Tim for your precious Ms Yap notes, and your unending patience and help (I'm starting to talk like you already when I analyse questions, I keep saying "meaning to say" like you do) and thanks alphonsus for teaching me about connecting wires hahaha.

Thank you chemistry tutor (who always talks damn loud everyone around stares in utter fury) I am his computing tutor but I’ve only tutored him ONCE while he’s tutored me like 30 times, so kind. Thanks!


Lai wah my housemate moved out today and gave this to me, purple hairbands! No, the white stuff arent cause theyre stretched over elastic limit/underwent permanent deformation ok, they are shiny shiny things. She bought them for me cause she accidentally dropped my purple one down the bathroom hole(so that was what happened to it) and I don't even remember it, and didn't expect her to be so nice to buy a whole bunch for me, why is the world so kind to me, some outcast girl who barely talks *sniffs* i am so touched I'm gonna cry a river now. sobs.

Alex talked to me today about how there is so much out there in the world to find. And people don't get anywhere without taking risks. Big scary risks. And you know, I have always been unobservant, afraid, insecure, ignorant of this big fat world, so undecided and refusing to take risks. Alas that will come to past, because I will change.



A vow to myself :)

Big Juicy Stripesssss

I think I caught an Aedes the other day. Sure looked like this.

Lol so cool right. Btw that's not the real pic. You think I so brave let him/her bite me ah/you think i have a digicam with so high resolution ah.

Anyway,

To my upmost horror!

Fugging warehouse people, manufacturer people, sellers, stores (whatever I dont know how it works) increased my beloved peanut butter chocolate oreo price from 2.90 to 3.20! What is this!

Must be those damn strategic driven reports written to strategically position organisations that showed an increase would be lucrative all because people like ME go purchase it so often *YELPS* Me should reverse psychology them err. All of y'all join me reverse psychology them! Dont buy peanut butter choc oreo for half a year!

NO! Me no want price increase!

Increase in petrol price affects all transportation prices so basically it freakin affects everything! Every single thing/food item/moisturizer/everything lah that needs to be transported from here to there to reach the hands of sarah jane chia. omg dire consequence! dire dire!

NO! Me no want increase!

UGH Trust me, when youre away from home and keep taking repeated trips to the ATM *heart hurts*, you will feeeeeeeeel the strain man, feeeeel it. No more mummy daddy to just hand me the cash. =( This is what it means to grow up ar? :( Maybe i should get married asap. LOL.

Nyway, Lo and behold the finals of all finalsssss *DRUMROLL or better yet
stjoemiri electric wheelchair(click me!)

: MY FINAL PAPER!

倒计时： 1 天

科目：Physics 1

感觉：高兴 =D

PS: Lex goodie luck to you!

CNEDLPWSI

Today, (it's 2am)

I fought with jackie about obama.

HAHAHAHAHA

U know what, I am the ultimate contradictor of the century man yes that's me yo!

U know how I've always been rooting for obama right, like I think he's DA MAN and stuff, but like there is one thing in particular which concerns me(no its not cause I love XiaXue lol) It's actually his approval onstem cell research

It is a very debatable issue.

What are your views ?

(If i still have readers la lololol. weih readers comment/tag la please i know you are there you are just so silent *convinces self that i still have readers*)

Simple lousy mandarin post hahaha

昨天我一个人去吃McD！我很早起来（10am）因为怕晚上又不能睡觉。 这个hotcake很好吃因为mcd miri 没有早餐的。

它的名字叫Hotcakes！

emmmm 好吃好吃 =)

这就是我和我的padini baby blue衣和我很美的头发。喜欢吗？ 哈哈哈.

我看到这个女子在那里。他的头发很长哦！为什么这样？！？！？！

以到家，又camwhore！这是我和我的double eyelid(看到吗?) 和我的BCG 哈哈哈！

sorry if some words wrong. BYE BYE

Kamek rindu ngan bahasa swak

HAHAHA cali I cant speak proper bahasa sarawak but I've attempted it many times tho people say I sound damn cina but who cares! I am cina what. HAHA cina sesat. So let this post be in cina slang bahasa Sarawak!

Btw if youre wondering what cali is.. cali means funny.

Hari towk, kamek pergi perpustakaan hahahaha sejuk gilak mok jd ais. hahahaha Ok i know i suck ok. kamek polah pastyear fizik. susah gilak, sik pande ku. kamek dah x tahan ngan exam bah. lamak gilak. kedak x ending. dahla smua exam susah alu, mok postpone gik lama2. kamek x paham la kenak org genius cambridge set exam susah gilak. camnela polah. hmm why do all my sentences sound wrong hahaha.

Apasal semue ayatku, bunyinye macam tak betul eh. hahahahhaahahahaahahhahaha

Oh ya, hari towk, sebelum gi perpustakaan, kamek pakei curler ya, polah rambutku wavy! Kacak eh!! Nangga lok! hahahahaha.

Kacak x? :D

Kamek suka gambar tok sbb cahaya matahari shining brilliantly. woo~ sbb masa ambik gambar ya, kamek duduk kat jendela hahaha burung kakak tua, hinggap di jendela~

Ketara alu bah bukak mata besar2. Sepet bah. haiihhh. Mun nangga betul2 nak, mataku ada double eyelid. sikit jak. pakei kosmetik polah. hahaha.

Pol teach me. isit mata kamek. or kamek pun mata. or isit mek. HAHAHA i campur ku and kamek cause i no0b.

Okeh. Kamek mok sambung gik fizik. CHAO LOK K! IBOH MANAS KRIS! IBOH MANAS! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Little feet beneath rich soil

Time to sprout two new feet and root them in the ground. Come challenge, come to mama :) I'm ready to face anything without being needy anymore! I'm ready! Aint nobodeh gona take this sengamat away from me yo! hahahaha sengamat! (wait lah till tomorrow, sure i emo again), but NO! I shall prevail!

I'm serious. I need to grow up :) And this is where being stubborn will benefit me.

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倒计时： 5 天

天科目：Chem 1

感觉：faster get over with! (ok as you can see, my mandarin is deteriorating)

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Btw : I watched Tropic Thunder today! It's kind of hillarious cuz Ben Stiller is the ultimate hillarious evar :D We need more shoots with Robert Downey Jr innit! I can melt in his accent! HAHAHA. No wonder IronMan is such a great movie. Accent appeal + Face appeal = Movie Heaven!

Another Btw : I haven't eaten dinner I am damn hungry now I am going to soooo suffer from gastric tomorrow.

Another Another Btw : Cassie dear invited me to her birthday party at MARINA BAY CHALLET AND GUESS WHAT? I won't be in Miri! I'm still nerding here with exams! You know, i miss cass. Her laughter is like life. haha. Cheers anyone up in a second. Thanks for the invite and have an awesome soon-to-be birthday dearie :)

hallelujah

My dear Nadal got knee injury. kesian. *tears*

Today, thinking skills erm, im not sure how it went. I was too panicky and my words didnt flow like they used to. I had abrupt mind blocks and didnt word my thoughts well. Haih. For sem1, my paper1 was strong. For trials my paper2 was strong. For real final exam, both also not strong. Bye A for thinking skills. Sigh. *still hoping the A will magically appear*

I finally won my 1st game of 2 suit spider solitaire after 40 plus futile attempts. yay me.

I love this song. A little oversung but still lovely~

倒计时： 1 天
科目：Physics 2
感觉：怕

KamHo~

-cause its a good hair day. wahaha lol not exactly good, but good if you're a fan of big messy hair, which most people arent i guess whatever la~

-and big eyes too. wahahaha i know the trick edi joey. My experiments getting more and more successful in eye enlargement. But my face getting rounder noooooo stupid weight leave me now! *waves magic wand instrusively particularly at tummy T_T*

Who misses red highlighted straight hair? *raises hand* =(

This was my lunch! Tokiwado!!! Hee, okla the real name is Takoyaki. I just like calling it tokiwado cause its round and cute and tokiwado is like the ideal kawaii ner name for it ma. Japanese balls, made up of flour, with octopus/squid/crab meat in the inside + sweet sauce and cebisan thingies I dont know what its called. Yummy!!! Eat on laptop somemore. oh n wasabi too (which i hate).

Korean kimpap!! Korean sushi. Yumz~ Got egg, meat, crabstick, vege, carrot and this yellow fruit thing which I dont really like cause it will make the taste sweet and I dont like sweet on sushi.

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倒计时： 5 天

科目：思维技能（2）lol

感觉：=.="

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Obsession to pink. Obsession... obsession.. she punk but she got big BIG heart. Here's a song in conjunction with new election. Cheers to you barack hussein obama, you shall make a difference! =D

Btw this song is just so damn nice. Omg the accapella part makes me wanna fly to the sky. Lol. damn damn nice. Bryan call me emo, wuuuut i like ma, cause i'm special like that =)

Reassurance

I had the best dream ever :)

Bits and pieces of my life everywhere.

I was living in a house which was awfully big, by myself of course but with other tenants. There were quite a lot of malays, a few young boy eurasians that reminded me of david archuleta, and a couple of pretty little girls.

I was studying in the study room about atomic structure and kershia was next to me.

I read quite a bit from the Chem book, closed it and went out. I remember being loud and happy, sliding down the main stairs and laughing at everyone I passed by. I saw Ms Nor there too, and she was her usual smiling self.

I ran to my room, along the way, people greeted me with smiles and my laughter was like music to my ears. When I reached my room, I heard music from the window. I went to the balcony. To my surprise I saw Belinda conducting the band down on the road, she had an upset face. I thought it must've been the band members being indisciplined again. I saw them march and my heart leaped. I don't remember what song they were playing, but there was a man on the balcony next to me, and he seemed to be conducting them too. He had a songkok on, and rubbed his face in frustration telling me the band doesn't give good dynamics. I told him, maybe the crescendos never peak because the timing isn't right all the time, and the band doesn't coordinate.

Then in the midst of the band members, I saw Ralph behind his tonel, with short hair. He seemed to not want to look at me. haha.

Suddenly shuwen appeared, and said her dad saw Jin Rong(hornist) talking, saying the band members spike their hair to prevent the sun from giving them sunburns. I laughed and thought it didn't make sense.

Then I went downstairs. I saw two little girls, one was about 4, and another about 8. I somehow knew their names were Jane and June, but I asked which one June was. The elder one pointed to the smaller girl, and I extended my hand out to hold her hand. She was the most adorable little girl I have ever seen in my entire life. Jane on the other hand, was demure and gentle.

I remember the feeling of loving and being loved. I remember my own smiles and laughter. I remember so much of every single thing that has fulfilled my life.

Then I woke up. Upon the single glance towards the walls in my room, I felt disappointment building up, thinking, yes i am here, again, this dingy room. But it did not surpass the feeling of hope I had, knowing it was existent.

I do not understand the dream, I know it carries not much significance. I've been trying to think of what it means. Kershia was probably there because we were primary5 classmates, and she is also having difficulty adapting to KL now, feeling withdrawn and such. And Ms Nor was probably there because she's nice when I ask her all my silly questions about Chem. Malays were there because I dated adam. Ralph was there, because he was also a part of my life. Band was there because I simply miss it badly, bel too. And shuwen appeared, probably because I'm grateful to her for befriending me.

What I do know is that I soaked myself in so much happiness. I had a taste of what it felt like to be happy again after so long of wishing I could feel it. Ah, the power of dreams.

And the little girls, I have decided to name my babies that. Jane, after me, and June, after my birthday.

Perhaps God is trying to let me know that I've had happiness in the past, and will have happiness in the future. I may not have it now, but I have hope it will come soon. =)

Shia my love

Went to watch Eagle Eye. I love Shia. Oh yes I so deeply do.

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科目：Phy (Prac)
感觉：很累pia chem!

indecipherable thoughts; sj <3