These Are A Few Of My Favourite Things (2007)

Hey everyone, i found this in my archives and had quite a laugh out of it hahahahaha. wrote this in 2007 i was really full of shit then :p feeling a little nostalgic but glad it's 2012 :p 

xx
sj

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Gastric.
Oh how I love thee,
Let me count the ways. . .
-1654, -7649348744, -17652484734.
Thou reassureth me
Of the only certainty of life,
which is DEATH,
and how it is a given.
Thou giveth me hope,
For undying PAIN.
How can I stay unperturbed?
How can I stay flinty throughout the torments of thy atrocious brutality?
Unexasperated, untrepidised?
I have had more than my share,
Of gagging, vomitting, barfing, puking.
Why, oh why
Does thy provenance lie,
In all that happifies my weary taste receptors,
Of sour and spice,
Of sombois, margeritas and mohfahkors.
The pain thy make beknownst to me
So polished, like the motherload,
As compared to a phalanx of languid dancers,
They who fall and bruise their delicate buttocks.
Like spasms of perfection,
In a thorn of prickly poison.

Period pain.
My loathe for thee endures eternity,
Containing love for own fertility.
Cramps per day,
Like a 10^10 kPa pressure exhaust,
Taking away my grace-filled comfort,
Trashing my optimism for benevolence and intrepidity.
Thou standeth out in the frightful crowd.
Is this insipid mood not nearly enough?
This grouchiness, this grumpiness, barely matching up,
To thy demands of horrifyingness?
What is thy proviso?
Thy prerogative? Thy purpose?
Oh so difficult to fathom,
Leaving me supplicating for thy depart,
Till we meet again,
Next month.

Both of thee.
Why couldn't thoueth see,
I need to convalesce,
I need my hiatus,
From thy unruly wickedness.
So please disperse.
As soon as thoueth might.
And I will be counting the days.

xx
sj

Flaming Legs

Hey, i'm in KL at the moment, in the condo.

oh hai iz me

and this is the view from the condo. i love it!!!!! serene and beautiful (:

i start work tomorrow! i guess i'm kinda excited, in a way. i know where my office is and i know how to get there and everything. i figured it out over the weekend.

i'm not working permanently though!!! because i'm not done with law school yet!!! this is just an internship taken on my own initiative. it's always good going for some outside exposure, and it's good to have working experience on your CV if you intend to work elsewhere in the future, not to mention knowing roughly what your job entails.

the condo is pretty, quite spacious which i like, the bed is super duper comfy.

anyway i made a booboo today.

blush.

i fell of the treadmill in front of a cute guy at the gym. EEK.

trust me to get myself into situations like these. yes. that's me, the girl who ALWAYS fell down as a lil girl, when she played tag with her friends. i'd fall and scrape my beautiful casio/bbg watch against the cement. and when i rode a bike along rottnest islands, i fell so many times to the extent it scared me to ride a bike ever again. (i only started revisiting the idea of biking last year, at 21 years old!)

yeah i fell off the treadmill. what happened was, my tiny kids section adidas shoes were starting to hurt my feet so i hopped off the treadmill without pausing it. took my shoes off hopped back on, and didn't realise how fast the treadmill was going, so i scrambled, i grabbed handles, i missed, i tumbled, i fell. crawling, sprawled, like an idiot.

must've made a hell of a thump because the dude with the weights (not to mention with the bulging muscles) scurried to look and was like ARE YOU OK? thankfully he did not laugh. :3 he was dead serious and very nice lah

must be because he doesn't have any smiling muscles since they are all situated at his arms HELLO wtf

anyway i didn't realise i SCRAPED MY KNEE until sometime after. after the fall i hopped back on and ran some more until i realised my right knee was kind of FLAMING lololol.

this really brings me back to my olden clumsy ways, the ones i've tried so hard to ERADICATE. i think the last scraped knee i've had was when i was 12 or something!

so now i have blisters forming from my sneakers which will really KILL my feet tomorrow when i wear heels to work, and i have a scraped knee which will really KILL me while i commute to work.

ah well, i guess i will always be me  :3 FOREVER.

xx

sj

Derpina

So i was thinking of what to blog about and like what picture to plaster here in this space, but i came up with none. except this

which is pretty much what i do everyday, walk around carrying my sister's heffalump hahahahaha. i think i'm getting a bit lazy, slacker life catchin' up with me! but i really wanted to blog, like my hands itched to type, or maybe i'm just feeling a bit bored.

what to talk about what to talk about my life is so uneventful! i didn't even travel all through summer, which okay, lemme tell you this, i was meant to travel around europe before flying back to malaysia. but THEN i suddenly ended up without a boyfriend so yeah that plan flew out the window, and then my friends went to ibiza to partay!! and we all know how i feel about partying nowadays *dark* *shake in fear* *cusses silently at manwhores* *weepy* *feels violated* *rage*

for more information in gory detail refer here lololol

so like i chickened out and didn't travel OH NOOOOOOOS missed one free chance to travel. was a bit tempted to pack my bags and go on my own actually to somewhere nearby hahahaha like a loner because i'm FASCINATED by the idea, it tempts me. i always say i'm not street smart and i really am not, not in the slightest, but when i absolutely have to pull through, i come through!!! i do!!! so yeah if i weren't a girl with a rapeable vajayjay i might've actually entertained the idea, would be totally cool doncha think. i might still do it one day and be extra cautious (:

idk im a hermit like that!

strange!

but i love company too don't get me wrong, i feel surrounded by great peeps often (: during my exam period anyway, i woke up everyday to text after text, whatsapp after whatsapp of support and care and .. you guys.. what tremendous help you all have been to me i cannot express my gratitude :') 

oh yes have i mentioned that i really want to go to greece? well i really really really do. and to prague. greece probably with my girlfriends / with le sister, and prague probably with le mr someone special in the future

derp derp

*crickets chirp*

what sorcery hahahaha

anyway what else is there to say? i'm sorting out my plans for singapore i guess! for the internship! accommodation errands, work permit applications yada yada, and um important stuff like shopping for work clothes! i tweeted this the other day, okay so in kl (before singapore) i'll be staying in our kl condo and the first thing i wondered was whether or not there'd be a full length mirror HAHAHAHA *BIMBO ULTIMATUM* anyway that is IMPERATIVE for smooth work days. oh just listen to me. just listen to the shallow frivolities spewing out my plumpy lips.

well i am actually more authentically determined than this, but it's all in the inside, at times suspended and unable to reach optimum projection hahahaha (excuses). 

anyway yea mom said we have about a gazillion mirrors attached to closet furnitures and stuff so that won't be a problem. what WOULD be a problem however is the fact that i will be without wifi HOW WILL I SURVIVE!

i shall see. perhaps i'll spend my free days at starbucks. or connect to hotspot as sis has suggested. i'm kind of looking forward to the internships although i am at the same time a little jittery. what will they expect of me? what will they expect of this young petite little girl clomping around in her high heels (and at times trudging depending on the time of day and the amount of dissatisfaction made known to her by her bosses)

enough talk. i will survive because that is the ONLY thing we can ever do (:

so that's that. 

update again when the time comes :p

xoxoxo

sj

Nihilism Annihilated

Exams are over everybodeh!!!! uhuh uhuh *chicken dance*

was a shit stressful period for me because for one, i went WIFOUT my coffee. yes you heard me, without it, for most of it. because i had weird nausea problems where i puked air everywhere i went, how attractive. i don't know if it's gastric or indigestion or just anxiety but it was horrid but i'm okay :)

exams were *shrug*, for lack of a better expression. let you know when results come out, or.. not. :p

i'm just glad i survived them, my first exam in the uk WITHOUT a boyfriend AND with shit health. more power to ya sj someday you're gonna conquer the world oh yeah baby come on come on

i'm exhausted, despite having been getting 8 hours of sleep (or more) everyday. i don't know what's up with me lately. but i'm ill you know, so i really have the inherent right to rest, if i do say so myself.

oh yes, we had jurisprudence today and i specifically chose the topic on nihilism because comparative religion struck my fancies BIG TIME baby a couple of years back, in a personal way. and for that reason i really REALLY wanted to make sense of my essay as i don't know, a sort of written letter of closure for that part of my life. but yeah that was quite some wishful thinking because i totally got lost in what i wrote head to tail top to bottom, my writing was total complete utter bollocks i don't even know if i would be able to make sense of what i've written if i were to read it now. i really should stop attempting to make hasty decisions based on some random forlorn bits of my life :S

lesson learnt. life is an experiment :p

catastrophic as it may be :p

i am full of shit :S

a picture of me with chopsticks in my hair from the time i decided to do a quick updo on a hot summery day. i really look like i'm embracing my asian roots, well i'm not japanese if that's what you're thinking. although i do have japanese readers (well i did). hajimemashite!

yay for huge ass pictures! this will be the size of my pictures from here on. this picture reminds me of the time  i just finished my exams in year 1 and pronounced the day Asian Appreciation Day!

hahahaha

and for those of you who want some mind fuck, i've dug out these entries from the time i was in the middle of that whole religion hoo-ha :)

Reason and Religion

The 10 minutes

No Boundaries, No Race, No Religion

TO THE SUMMER

and beyond :)

xx
sj

Just because I want a mobile uploads update too!

HEYYA!!! i was randomly browsing through my blackberry photos the other day and smiled at some of em! so i thought i'd do a blog update on the photos because i don't have the mobile upload fb app *kiasu cannot lose* lol actually that's not the reason, i just feel like posting the pictures :p besides blackberry photos already lose x100 because picture quality is like shit!

green tea ice cream some time midyear of 2011!

my favourite game, family feud hahahah it's damn syok one, basically you play against the computer and when you win, you get into FAST MONEY where you have to guess the most susceptible answer to questions and aiyah just very fun la! i also like scrabble a lot (NERD) and scramble. scramble is my insomniac game. when i had BAD insomnia in year 1 law, i used to play over and over and over and over and over and over while bf snored lika pig next to me.

oh yea i used to get a lot of nightmares too btw like in first year chem eng and in first year law, and sometimes they were to do with matt treating me like shit LOL so sometimes in the middle of the night i'd randomly HIT him hahahahahaahah and he will be like wtf? but he's used to it. other times when my dreams are about sharks and snakes diving into the pool i'm swimming in (omaigad), i will wake up and whine and whine until matt sayangs me and if he doesn't i will keep whiningggggggggg :)

it's great to be my boyfriend.

wonderful

back to the point, the snapshot of that game was to show bf because he always criticises the amount of salt i put on my fries. i have high salt tolerance. :S

nice pic of my ballet flats big chunky ring and DIY manicure. this was also in year1 law. when was the last time i had the time to do my nails nicely honestly!!?!!?! sigh.. year2 busy like shit can daii

man on the street playing a clarinet :) i play the clarinet :) i'm pretty sure i donated to him. i like donating because i just feel bad walking past. especially if you are an old man, i will donate. because i can't imagine a father having to beg by the streets SOBSSSSSSs

this was my first lush item ever, my birthday present from my friend suhwee! it was a honey bath bomb and a cucumber exfoliating mask. super excited when i got it because i've wanted to try lush products for so long but never got around to it :)

uhuh.. yup.. that's what ombudsmen are

this was in june while i was packing for summer. it was a hellish experience of a lifetime!!! i was gonna store my boxes in a friend's place on the 6th floor but the lift broke and matt and i (and our friends) had to climb up 6 flights of stairs carrying my useless boxes T______________T anyway as you can see, i am breastfeeding teddy wtf hahahahah

english breakfast! :) i love it. except i don't eat the eggs, baked beans, tomato, and black pudding

Froyo which became YoFro lol. i treated my friend parva to it after the summer. wasn't that good to be honest, too sour for my likings

cute rubbish dump truck LOLOLOL i'm pretty sure the collector is a man who never grew up/has a son who collects toys which his daddy(rubbish collector) wants to get rid of/ maybe the collector is a woman because if i were a rubbish collector, i'd decorate my truck like that for SURE!

kaykay's birthday at new samsi!! i had to edit this photo to make the colouring more bearable!!! she looks pretty here!

ugly nails (actually they aren't ugly the phone camera just makes the colour look ugly). this was during the sleepover at krystle's with anne and kaykay right about the time bf and i were about to split up like maybe a month back? guess i needed a girly getaway. we had a good time camwhoring a lot hahah, painting each other's nails, and we watched Mean Girls!! and then i had pillow talk with krystle before bed :) and then kaykay came and we made love all 3 of us wtf hahahhahaahhah i kid :p we have this ongoing kinky joke of us three being lesbians which is totally untrue because i have a bf!!!!!!!

as usual i spend way too much money and time at coffee shops. if i saved up on coffee i'd probably be able to get an LV bag or something. yea and sometimes i spend time in there alone HAHAHA i know, very sad, most people can't do this but i'm special like this :p i don't feel sad when i'm alone :) i feel calm :) like a true loner, oh dear masochistic ways please leave me alone hehe the irony

yea and who would sarah jane be without the camwhore pics :3

i know i said i'd like take pics of my room and show you guys like i did my previous room last year but my room is tiny honestly there isn't much to show. and the decor isn't as elaborate because it's just so small that decor makes the room appear more crowded

oh, you know how in some camwhore pics i have like a tshirt pinned to my notice board? it was my birthday gift last year from friends who signed their names and their wishes to me ^^

so i pinned it on the board. OH and i also slipped in one of my pink bras to poke out of the cleavage area of the shirt because i think it's damn cute hahahahahahha here, i show you

CUTE HUH?!?! XD

oh yes, i went to watch twilight breaking dawn with krystle and dione and i'm kind of obsessed with it right now :) anyone share my sentiments? dione and i were sniffling throughout the movie. i think i cried like 3 times =/

i really like how the love story is so old-fashioned and conservative and sigh... i just get all sappy over these themes because i really appreciate them as compared to more modern takes on love, ie, overtly sexual movies involving a lot of nudity and throwing their virtues all around :S

i'm sure millions of girls out there concur sigh, twilight ftw seriously. matt was left off the hook this time (from watching twilight with me) but GUESS WHAT!

we are going to nottingham soon to watch legally blonde the musical :) my friend kaykay cracks up picturing matt watching such a bimbotic show but he said he would watch it with me to make up for all our arguments in september

and also it's our tradition that he watches the show :p before i went into law, i made him watch the movie (legally blonde 1 and 2) with me hahahaha because i was uncertain about going into law and i insisted if he supported me he would watch it with me to prepare me for law school hahahaha i know this sounds so stupid and bimbotic

but i am bimbotic in a lot of ways ok so i'm not gonna deny it

but i can be something completely different when i'm DARK so i choose the happy sunny side of myself anytime ^^

enjoy your days everybuddy, hope you have a great weekend!

f-LAW-ed

So I maintained my upper second class average for year 1. i got the exact same average mark that i got for first semester.

although the perfectionist in me yearns and SCREAMS for a first class, i am happy indeed :)

i guess i'm more happy about the fact that i've accepted that studies is NOT everything. I enjoy basking in the westernized culture of how you should only study what you are interested in and you should love what you do and grow in doing what you love. because what is the use, really, of doing something you hate and getting flying colours? i feel so relieved that this useless weight of perfectionism has been taken off of me. of course it took some time for me to adjust to this. first time being in SPM when i got A2 for EST and BM cibai lol and then in ALevels getting a B for physics WTF. it just lessened my streak of straight A's one by one.

but of course i am AN ASIAN AHAHAHAHHA and i will fight to my death bed for a first.class.average *heaves with knitted eyebrows and slitted eyelids* (asian in me insists: i did get first class for some modules ok, just not for the average) ahahahaha. well honestly, i DID try to study harder for my second semester but halfway through i gave up lol. because changing my procrastinating ways was simply too hard to do and i gave up. but it was my best, i know it was. and i am super proud of that. i don't mind being flawed as long as i have LAW SCHOOL (see title lol)

well of course anyone would be proud of an upper second mark if they had gotten like a 20% in say, one of their maths exams in say, chemical engineering? just saying LOL

more importantly, these passing marks give me a strong sense of accomplishment, that i have grown to know where my passion lies and to trust my instincts in making life choices.

i've never studied law before and indeed reading PAGES AND PAGES of BIG FAT PLUMP JUICY books felt like hell but it was all worth it :) now i feel like a total bookworm and i totally earn the right to say "i'll sue you all!" to anyone who dares pick a fight with me :)

that phrase comes real handy with my lil bros, it totally cracks them up :)

to come to think of it, why do lawyers need to argue their way through anything since they already have this default phrase rendering them advantageous over non-lawyers? *chuckles*

thank you God for continually guiding me to maturity and wisdom. thank you parents for investing in my education as fickle minded as that journey might have been. thank you matty for never expecting anything out of me and for loving my 20% math mark.

and thank you sarah jane for believing in life enough to know that sometimes in this whirlwind of indecision, your voice counts because it is that very voice that will lead you to a happiness no one else could ever decide was yours to begin with.

cheers y'all! ima happy 1st year graduate!

one step closer to being like kate hudson in Bride Wars.

YES!

Asian Appreciation Day

Officially over with exams! praise the Lord! passable i reckon (shall notify if otherwise). hmm actually scratch that because i don't want to jinx it like how i always jinx my relationship with matt saying we are never going to fight again T_T

Super happy the dark dark days are over! i get to PARTEHHH now, in my room, by myself, on my bed, eating chocolate, watching movies. you know what i really wanna do. i really want to take a long bubble bath with calm music and scented candles. no bath tub here but there IS one i could crash. should i should i?! but i don't have bubble soap!

anyway i can't think of what else to say aside from proclaiming to the rest of the world that i'm DONE WITH FIRST YEAR LAW! i did it. i didn't drop out WITHDRAW. everytime people say i "dropped out" of chem eng i want to grab them by the neck and... hurt my arm muscles lol. excuse me, i did not drop out, i withdrew for lack of interest, in case you don't know the difference pfft

ok fine i admit i could've performed better but everyone knows people perform bad at stuff they don't like. rightttttt? kinda like me passing my grade 8 piano exam on the dot because i hated practising the lame ass songs over and over. variety is evuhreething

anyway since i have the time i decided to create myself a TWITTER account wheeee! (cause grace has been bugging me) lol

so follow me!!! http://twitter.com/#!/fanciepantiies

actually you don't have to follow me, i'm perfectly fine not being followed. i only want a place to vent because venting seems nicer in short form compared to long twisty sad stricken blog entries.

i wish everyone the best in their remaining exams!

off to put on my facial mask and to cucumber my eyes LOL

speaking of eyes, lol,

just the other day when i was on the way home from the library (at around 9pm-ish) i saw this old man limping by to the bus stop. it was a bank holiday so there weren't many people around so i got scared because i get this eerie feeling of people who limp=people who get into gang fights=break their legs=limp

but he was the sweetest man EVAR! he asked me how my studying was going and he said YOU ASIANS ARE SO BEAUTIFUL. OMG he said "english girls are pretty but you guys are just so beautiful, especially when you smile". the IRONY since racist comments are usually about us being CHINK

he was so nice and sweet. i was scared at first because his breath had the alcohol stench and he was probably on the way back from the pub (i even held on to my mechanical pencil in my coat pocket as a weapon WTF)

good ol' men like these GMH. i really really hope his drunkenness did not make me look prettier in his drunken eyes. maybe it added an inch or two to the size of my eyes hmmmm

anyway i hope all asians out there get good experiences in foreign countries instead of getting harassed. i duly proclaim this day, asian appreciation day lol

go out and celebrate your chinkiness and beady pair of boobs !

proud to be asian and ecstatic to be done with the exams,

sj

My Stress Game

HEEHEEHEE click to enlarge picture.

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Damn right lawyers need to read a lot of words!

Exams in 2 weeks AAAAAH!!!

Please do not let history repeat itself!!

Btw i deactivated facebook so don't go looking for me there :)

Ok it's 3.50am now, i think i should probably go to bed. Please oh please oh please pray that i can concentrate on studying for now!!!!!

Might blog again soon though because i have some pre-drafted entries xoxoxoxo

Happy studying uni of manchester students. And along with that, happy eating, happy no sleeping, happy getting fat, happy pimple popping, happy eye sore-ing, happy no interneting, happy missing sarah jane :)

mwaks

lol

Halloweiner

Seminar reeked today! i am so not good with politics. politics you will be the end of me SIGH remember what i said about spending more time understanding? nope, didn't happen. i spent a LOT of effort (err comparitively and in comparison to me la of course not anyone else lol) on ingesting politics but no siree, i, sarahjane am INCAPABLE of grasping it fully to an extent i would be proud of sigh

i am also a weiner because i am as shy as ever to say a word :(

and to make things worse it snowed at 3am last night and today the bus systems were like stinky diarrhoea-d poo and i had to walk with my nice boots, on the slippery snow, with my feet gripping for its dear life on the road, with my ears feeling like they would fall off and with a sore headache after because the cold made its way to my head O.O

snow looked beautiful last night i have to admit, but for first-timers do you get now why i hate snow. i hate snow with all my effing life!

anyway this entry is to distract myself from my utter inadequacies lol (pls don't tell me to be less self effacing because trust me i ought to be no less of it than this!)

so for halloween, baby and i decided to go for this (supposedly) major clubbing event at The Mansion by the exclusive VTown and MUCSS (manchester chinese soc)

We were so excited, got ready and all lol

baby didn't know what to wear for his outfit so he stole my HEADBAND (yes it's a headband/headscarf) and used it as a TIE lol quite innovative i suppose and used my 3D movie glasses he randomly found on my shelf as shades LOL. here, i am a dalmatian and he is cruella devile or according to what most people prefer to think, i am a school girl and he's a teacher UHOH inappropriate relationship jengjengjeng

i initially wanted to tie my hair like that but decided to tie two big ponytails instead to look like ears

and drew some spots on my nose to look like a dog's nose LOL wtf la people kept asking me if i went as a little girl with blackheads XD

shot in the dark

but the sad thing is ... Ha Ha Ha, we didn't make it to club. actually we did, but the event turned out to be so popular from last year's experience that it was too darn full and we were stuck in the queue for about 30min before we decided to give up and leave. it was a 1 in 1 out sorta concept by then and i randomly asked a girl at the front of the queue how long she'd been waiting and she said 3 hours omg

so technically i didn't do anything for halloween T_T except go to shaun's place after for pizza and southpark but that isn't halloween-ish at all *emo

but it beats what i did last year

i am so going as a slutty animal next year *feels matt's ferocious stare* hee i don't mean it in a slutty way but honestly, halloween is all about slutty animals so much so that sluts are excused because sluttiness becomes the norm of the day! eg, rabbit, leopard, you know the rest.

Hee. ok i was just blogging while eating because i was gonna take a nap but i knew that if i were to nap b4 eating i would end up not eating n just rushing to lecture at 1 in the difficult and annoying snow.

Retail therapy

11 days to manchester! *pees in pants*

Worries starting to kick in! No longer easy to fall asleep at night SIGH

I am worried about the ensuite thing. My new room has an attached bathroom in it so that means i get my own bathroom space (no need to tahan my poo if got people in the hallway) HAHA yay! but i am worried because i use a lot of toilet paper and that means that it is gonna take up A LOT of my budget.

unlike before, i can't just use as much toilet paper as i want in shared bathrooms, provided FOC by the accommodation.

lol matt said that is a really ''important'' thing to worry about :p

i don't know about you but i don't feel at peace using minimal toilet paper. even after peeing. (guys you won't understand lol)

I will also need to buy myself a full length mirror now that i can no longer run secretly in and out of the shared bathroom which had the mirror!

ie,

XD

I am damn sad actually because i just started a new song at dance class (paris hilton WTF!) but now i won't get to finish it ! *wails* sighhhhhh

and without dance, how am i gonna sweat it out and feel GREAT! how am i supposed to get thinner from now on. how are my arms and tummy gonna survive through my stress-induced munching sprees. how can i go jogging in manchester without turning to ice or becoming one with the rain?

how am i gonna solve my non-commitment with Mr Gym? :S

I am also gonna miss the weather in malaysia terribly. I am the type of person who easily gets cold so me and mancunian weather don't really match. Except maybe spring weather is fine.

How am i gonna maintain ballet flats' cleanliness & GOOD SMELL with all the puddles in manchester. btw my red ballet blats just KO-ed *funeral mode*

How am i gonna drink cendol SOBS actually there are 2 or 3 malaysian restaurants in manchester neninenipoopoo :D:D manchester roxxxxxx!

Actually that is all i can think of for now hehehe.

Mom realises my need for retail therapy and look what she got me!

Ribbon junior pearl necklace in off-white!

I am in love with fashion that involves pretty pretty ribbons. I have no objections whatsoever! They are dainty and sweet and so cute! omg!

I saw this Coach wallet with matt the other day. It was leather black and had a ribbon on it! So! Cute! But i didnt have enough $$ la i still dream about it somedays :p but i'm very happy with my pink Guess.

My first floral item. I am aware the whole wide world is about florals now but i never got around to buying one till now. Mainly because i always feel a lao gu dong sorta gan jue with florals. When i try on some i look like your grandma XD

Not really my true style but this one is really pretty and sweet :)

I think i mentioned before that i tried on this gorgeous red floral tight fitting dress at jane norman and matt loved it a lot on me but then i had to put it back on the rack because every single girl has one of those!!! and my tummy was also huge at that time so i felt like the dress was accentuating the hugeness of it

And true enough after i left manchester matt saw like 3 or was it 4 girls wearing the similar dress.

But on the day i tried on the red floral dress i ended up buying this yellow one sided jersey with retro prints on it. love it!

I think that to follow fashion, you need to be mega loaded because obviously seasons pass and what will you do with all the fashioney stuff you purchased when they were to go off? Eg, oversized bell bottomed jeans. I had those in like lower secondary form and i donated them to workers at the petrol station a few years back.

Unless of course you are really the type that needs to follow in stream then it may be worth it for you. Everyone has their kinda thing. Maybe you can end up selling them off once you get sick of it just before the season ends? I dunno.

I also got green yoga fold-over pants and a couple of fanciepantiies :p

Ok please pray that my worries don't eat me alive! thanks.

HappySappy

Guess what!

I read a blog of a friend's friend's exgf (lol) and i saw this article on "quarter life crisis!"

OMG!

I talk about my quarter life crisis all the time! I even derived the term from mid-life crisis! Little did i know it actually existed. I am a genius! He He He!

I'm so happy that it's normal. I just got the crisis a little early that's all (most people get it when they first start looking for a job) but i'm so happy it's slowly getting over now and i promise there will be no more quarter life crisis for me from now on. I'm so sorry for being so emotional lately but please understand that i had to sorta be mature to handle a difficult life.

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I had quite a bad day today, will blog about it another day when the timing is more suitable (it's complicated). All i'm gonna say about today is i learned how incredibly backward some mindsets are and how terribly lazy people can be.

And to think i was lazy! :p

Anyway, i am slowly starting to say the "semenanjung" "EH" after certain sentences!

OMG!

Typical KL type sentences are:

1. damn nice wei

2. I don't know eh

3. takde kot

4. so sampat one

5. yes ah

6. bed pronounced as "bade" XD

yea if you've lived here and there you'd notice lol

And i am so upset at myself for losing my heritage! I blame matt for influencing me! hhahaha

Sarawakian's "eh" is longer and more draggy, if you know what i mean.

And i've been trying to spam "ba's" after i accidentally say the KL "eh's"! Just to sound more sarawakian.

I love being in miri but somehow a part of me just wants to go to manchester.

I'm done with the worrying. I'd rather go on with law, and worry then, so that the worrying would be for a cause lol.

Besides, i really like manchester. I think it's a wonderful place. Very forward, developed, a place for everything. Good shopping, wonderful fashion, diverse food choices, best clubs! and affordable too, not really a place for sights but there are wide parks and who needs nice sights everyday when you can travel elsewhere for them! oh, and lots of asians. Well not tons, but a lot in comparison to other states in the UK.

Asians actually come to manchester from other states in the UK (Except london) to shop and eat so it's a great place, i'll give you that :)

After life in taylor's i feel like life in KL failed me wtf but i don't have the same feeling about it in manchester. which is why i made a choice to go back. i'm not ready to call it quits :) I want more chances and more trying because i know i can make it work one day. i'm sarah jane :)

All in all, i am happier these days. Because i am growing to LOVE MY LIFE!

oh yeah!