Monday, 13 February 2012

The Hovering Chromatic

When they speak of the precious melody,
perhaps they led us to believe
it was ever manifest, like a chime;
the mythic folk tale defaulted in its revelation of the single note
one unheard,
a pull, rather
singing, humming, spinning you around,
like the tiles of a ballroom floor coming to life,
like the phases of your tears-they fall, they dry-as they quicken,
they whisk away into the thin air you inhale a goodness your very breath clings its life unto;
emotions of control and honesty and beauty,
whilst you rid yourself of coarse, shaky uncertainties,
battling and combating the daggers of desire,
piercing each and every side of your walls,
humbling your groundings into muddiness,
with it astonished at your senses, amplified;
as your soul it sings to the sublime;
when the world feels impractical,
when the trees they hover over you,
as though to shield you from grave mistake,
but you tread on, higher
enchanted,
deeper into this vibe;
this connection all too foreign to barricaded boundaries,
for every moment in time where you found yourself walking the steps you walked,
smiling the smiles you led astray,
they spoke through a letter, a chromatic,
leading to a faint diminishing array of harmonies all too magnificent,
a tune your soul bares itself to, dares itself to
climb into airy dreams whilst you close your shuttered eyes to rest
where it belonged all along;
a longing;
alongside you.




"i never believed i'd tell you this, but you're the word my psalms will miss". 

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

FanciePantiies

the reason why my name is something as lame as fanciepantiies is because i created it as my blog name years and years ago in my attempt to be shallow because the depth in which my mind was plunging into was scary and i wanted to get out. thereafter, i discovered the power of loving all things shallow not because of my desire for frivolous things by the surface but because finding happiness in the exterior is also simple, easy, fun and worth indulging in when the other parts of your life are in shambles. till today i am the best of both worlds (which doesn't mean BEST in this context because extremities are not necessarily the best) but i keep fanciepantiies.blogspot.com to remind me of what i set out to be, and this blog comes/came with a lot of sad stories, some indecipherable, and some giggly ones too effing lame for words, because that is just it, i am a part of both worlds, and i thank the people who have stuck with me long enough to know all of the above :)

xx
sj

Wednesday, 1 February 2012

I'll Take You To The Candy Shop



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HI WHAT HAVE I BEEN UP TO? lololol



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actually these are partying pics of OLD just that i never had time to upload




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this was the candy shop party like sometime in oct/nov last year lolol... anne and i with BIGNANA (this very cute banana plushie won by our friend georgina at a theme park and loved by many)



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met up with anne and krystle at their place and met new friends from the east!!! cheryl alan and khai wen are from the sabah and ren yang in the middle is from singapore hahaha



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posing with bignana



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a bit high from tequila shots lol



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? nanda kore wa?



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anne and i



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babes :))))



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guys!



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camwhore in krystle's room!



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and emo poses by the street hahhaah because we thought the background was suitable for emo expressions



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one of my fb profile pics. i think it's very ARTSY HAHAAHAH lol




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also one of my fb prof pics. nocturnals!



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with eejane and cheryl at the club!



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with sandra! the theme was candy shop so there were candy everywhere up for grabs!



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:)



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at entourage



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bottoms up!



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cheryl damn cute here!



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honey! my vietnamese friend from bulgaria. she's super pretty like a model



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group pic!



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toilet also wanna camwhore!



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krystle and her sexy messy hair!



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the janes!! photo taken by a guy who asked for my number which i afterwards rejected (even though bf and i were technically on a break at the time) because i don't give my number to strangers, sorry! i'm sure you are a nice guy though! bf and i are good now :)



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shhhh LUL dunno what that pose was for.



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and my super mega camwhore pics which i had to piece together in my attempt to lessen the degree of narcissicism because having 6 big ass photos of me will really magnify my vanity lol

although arguably this makes absolutely no difference

but anyway these were taken before the new year's so technically i still had some leeway then before being bound by my new year resolution to be less vain. *FEELS BOUNDED* T_______T

anyway, that party was kind of fun :) had a good time with my girlfriends. don't worry though we are all very well-behaved. girls, they just wanna have fun -cyndi lauper

and bf, you never have to worry (not that you do i don't think) because my heart is always always with you, i'm sure you know that.

someday somehow i'm gonna make it alright just not right now, i know you're wondering when, you're the only one who knows that! -nickelback

sorry, i always randomly gather song lyrics in my head when something pops up that reminds me of those lyrics. i swear my brain is like a shotgun. my thoughts flash through like cuhrazy i actually do notice how insanely fast they are. sometimes they can be a problem!

anyway i just got back from germany!!! i really liked that trip, because i fell in love with german history quite quickly in a way i've never loved any other history. i LOVE it. i love german history (am i repeating myself yes i am repeating myself)

but yeah i think it's quite simply amazing. and solemn at the same time. pics will be uploaded next time when i'm more free. second semester classes are starting!! and well, i'm actually still very free but having only gotten back i have a lot of spring cleaning to do, laundry, chores, planning on my planner, stuff.

james morrison concert tomorrow!!!

xx
sj